Saturday, June 16, 2007

Stuck Part 2(The Girl)

*Please read part 1 first. Then only you guys will get the whole picture*

Hey... I never noticed how your eyes sparkled when you smile. And since when did you become so charming? I'm starting to notice a different side of you. A side that I seem to be falling for. When did this happen? Your my best friend, there's no way. You've always been there for me. The more I scream for you to go away, the more you stay. When I tell you to let go, your hug just gets tighter. Your my diary, my jester, my partner in crime, my sidekick, my debate partner. You know me better then anyone in this world. You know all my hopes, fears and regrets. In short, your my best friend. But that's all you are....right? I think I'm falling for you..No,I don't think, I'm SURE I am. Uh-oh, I'm screwed aren't I? This can't happen. I can't tell you that I've fallen in love with you. I'll lose you and that's the last thing I want to happen. I should talk to my best friend about this..but crap! That's you. Looks like I'm alone in this. I know what needs to be done, to make sure I won't lose you. I better tuck those feelings away now(put it in a jar and tuck that jar in the shelves of my heart) But but....Gosh,I never noticed how gorgeous your smile was...

Stuck in the air. Neither saying anything. Both love each other, but both don't dare say it. from best friends to unknown lovers.Bound by love, separated by words & 'if's'.

Thursday, June 14, 2007

My Name On Purple.

"Stop swimming around in your own mind. That is a dangerous neighborhood that you should not go into alone." Jake from Just Like Heaven.

This week nothing much happened. Except a few events that just makes you think 'why the hell do you even bother?' Starting to get bloody tired about the whole darn thing. I mean, it's just like a circle that's never stops bloody hell turning. On the brighter side, some of the funny events of SMK USJ 8 are as followed: Yesterday during my arts exam, where I drew a tadika version of toys, Wei Leong started asking around for a marker. Your wondering why? well,that's simple, he wrote his WIFE'S name(that's me FYI) on his shoe! He spelt it wrong so he wrote it again on his other shoe and covered up the mis-spelled one with bright purple paint. Yea, that won't attract ANY attention. So now one shoe has a splosh of purple while the other one proudly reads: Pauline & Lee Sher-maine. And I think he's planning to re-write my name on the purple. Talk about custom made wei! And I notice he tends to get tummy aches during the 1st few days of exams.hmm.. makes you wonder... PrincessLSM & YoursTruly had one of those conversations where we talk about deep stuff one second, then proceed to nonsence, then to serious-ness again then end the whole thing with a good chuckle. And today, we got served by Pn. Vasantha! haha! it was so funny cause our Mak Cik canteen went to do donno what then teacher was standing there waiting for change I think..
Pn.Vasantha: What you want girls?*looks at the food*
Us: Keropok Lekor...2 packets please.
Pn. Vasantha: Nah*takes money*


Weird... But other than that pretty normal. But I think that's what wrong. everything the same.No change. I need things to be different. For something to happen. Meet new people. Do something new.. I just need SOMETHING to happen. I'll go crazy if just stays in this weird pace.

Something has to happen. Something has to change.I'm swimming in a dead lake. No waves, No currents, not even a ripple. I splash around, trying to cause some sort of ripple effect, hoping it would bring some sort of clarity to my thoughts. But they just die away like ripples so often do. I need something, anything to happen. I hate sitting in still water. What happened to all the waves, currents, and splashes in my life? Where have they gone? I miss them so...

I'm sitting in stagnant waters. Someone please join me. Let's make a splash.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Stuck Part 1(The Boy)

I honestly wish I could tell you. Better yet, I wish you could just see it for yourself! Don't you see me? Here I am,waiting for your love, waiting, hoping, wishing you would see me as more than just your best buddy. It makes me sick to think about him kissing you, whispering sweet nothings in your ear, staring into those midnight eyes of yours. Oh boy, I feel horrible thinking about it. Maybe that's cause deep down inside, I wish it was me doing those things with you, to you. You mean more to me than you think. I cherish every moment I spend with you. I love doing the things we do.. I love the way you cling to me when we watch horror flicks, even though you know I'm just as freaked out. I love our conversations where we talk for hours on end about absolute nonsense. I love YOU. don't you see that? I want to be more than just your buddy. I know it's selfish but I want more. Open your eyes & see what's right in front of you. Please Princess, this jester of yours begs of you...Make me your prince.

*Soppy much? haha! i promised myself no more soppy-ness for a while but..ah well..a little soppy woppy posts ever hurt anybody.. got part 2 also!the girl pulak.toodles!*

Saturday, June 9, 2007

Happy Little Trees!

'We are to assume that she is a woman scorned, which fury hell hath no! ' The one & only Captain Jack Sparrow!


Aloha! So yesterday we had a surprise Birthday lunch for our one and only Barry! Actually the whole event was really in-promtu. On Thursday K.C and I were talking and we were both basicly bored out of our minds! honestly, even counting the hairs on our head would have been a step up from whatever it is we were doing at home. So we talked about going out yam cha and from there operation 'Barry's surprise' was born. Made plans, calls, and once everyone was on board we put this plan in motion. Next day,went to Taipan, and waited for the rest. Barry thought he was going for a CF meeting with Grace, K.C and himself. We changed the venue from My Kopitiam to Strawberry Fields cause there had more seats(3 guesses why..) We also found out Barry ate already...wth.. don't care la. Waited for the rest of the gang and we hid behind the restaurant and we ambushed him. I boo-ed him 1st. He just looked at me with a 'who the heck is this woman' look. The rest came but even then he was just plain stunned. It took him 15 minutes to figure out what was going on! even then he was still in a daze..poor dude. We all ate and lepak-ed and Jeremy & I snuck off to buy a cake. We couldn't figure out what message to write on it but in the end we settled with 'Happy 'Late' Birthday Michelle!'(Michelle is what Uncle Kevin calls him. If you know Uncle Kevin, then you'll know why he does that*cheeky grin*) So after some really good cake we all moved our party to McD's. K.C, Barry and I made a pit stop at Glad Sounds 1st. It was like attack of the lunatics upstairs. All acting like 4 year olds high on sugar. After awhile it got REALLY rowdy and I kinda started getting a little worried. Barry went home and I was kinda bummed cause it kinda seemed like no one noticed except K.C, myself and maybe Jeremy. His the birthday boy guys..We're here for him. Anywho, it got crazy to the point management came and told them(in this order):
1) You have to take of your shoes before you get on the playground thingy.
2)12 years old and below only allowed on the playground thingy(she couldn't mention THAT 1st??)
3) Can hear you crazy young 'uns from downstairs(she didn't actually call us crazy young 'uns now!)

K.C and I were in the clear cause we were just sitting there with innocent faces(well, we weren't doing anything in the 1st place so our Innocent faces were completely justified!) Jeremy hid behind the tembok..=_=

Thank you K.C for walking me to tuition, talking to me about doing what you want to, and keeping me company. And thank you for giving me the full credit in planning this event but this was a collaborative effort between the two of us. *smile*

Here are the video's of Barry, Jeremy and Jason getting bashed. And a few pics too. Got more pics la, but lazy to upload.


why u all go bash 'Michelle

Jason's tersesat bash.





The Cake & Barry a.k.a Michelle.

Barry with all that chocolate-y goodness...



These images are highly disturbing...lol.

K.C posing with sexy legs and body behind there..Don't steal the lime light K.C!!





HAPPY BIRTHDAY BaRRY! May God Bless You Always.

Thursday, June 7, 2007

Lapisan Bawang.

ThePrecious tagged me so it's my obligation to answer this slightly pointless questionnaire.(i wanted the nicer one!) Here goes..

Layered Tag
Layer One : On the Outside

Name : Pauline Sarah Fernandez a.k.a Princess/Mori-chan/miss fernandez/theprecious/one nick given by family which i shall never mention in public. ever.
Birth date: Tiga Belas September(13/9/1990)
Current status : Single
Eye color : Dark brown
Hair color : A mix of dark aurburn and black
Righty or Lefty : Righty


Layer Two : On the inside
Your Heritage : Malayalam girl with a mix of something. Just not sure what it is.(never asked parents yet)
Your Fears : Frogs or toads!*shudders* The fear of feeling helpless.

Your Weaknesses : Being a stubborn mule. Being an easy push-over.
Your Perfect Pizza : I'm not all to picky..depends on what I'm the mood for.


Layer Three : Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : My brain goes into overdrive. All sorts of nonsense buzz around there. Probably why i cant go back to sleep after.

Your bedtime : 12-ish on a weekday, later on weekends.
Your most missed memory : All those times with Ikki-San, Form 4, and the time shared with AuntyMolly.

Layer Four : Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : Either or.

Mc.Donalds or Burger King : Mc.D's. more choice's there. and price just right.
Single or Group dates : Single dates 1st..later on then maybe group dates. 1st date should be single.
Adidas or Nike : either or?

Tea or Nestea : Me tak suka tea. Period.
Chocolate or Vanilla : Vanilla. Can't stand just pure chocolate. Too jelak-ing.

Cappucino or coffee : Coffee girl all the way.(I've been drinking coffee since i was standard 4. but only on weekends then..)

Layer Five : Do You...
Smoke : contrary to popular belief... no i don't smoke.
Curse : Occasionally. I have been known to let slip now and again. And when I've absolutely reach my boiling point where no amount of wusa-ing can calm me.
Take showers : Which smelly monkey(who have the means to bathe) won't bathe? What a question..
Have a crush : Right now at this very moment of me life? Nope.
Think you've been in love : Maybe. Not too sure myself.
Go to school : Darn SPM year for YoursTruly.

Want to get married : Some day..sure, of course
Believe in yourself : No at one point but that's all out the window now. Gambateh Pauline!

Think you're a health freak : Nah.

Layer Six : In the past month, Have you...
Drank alcohol : Nada.

Gone to the mall : Abuden..
Been on stage : does the front of perhimpunan to take a sijil count?
Eaten Sushi : The last time I ate proper sushi was when we made it for K.H class in form 2.

Dyed your hair : past month, no..tak mau kena from Victor or Chin Chin..

Layer Seven : Have you ever....
Played a stripping game : Nope
Changed who you were to fit in : Once. Then I realised it was total crap and i was better off staying the way i was.


Layer Eight : You're Hoping
To be married : Like I said, someday of course.

For a : New & interesting friend.

Layer Nine : In a Girl/Guy
Best Eye + Best Hair Color Combination : Me is a eyes girl.. So any hair colour that will bring out the colour of one's eyes is chunted in my book.

Short or long hair : depends on the type of guy. Bookish, Emo, punkster, surfer, good boy, bad boy,..etc..

Layer Ten : What were you doing
1 min ago : Buat survey ini, planning someone's birthday surprise.

1 hour ago : mandi-ing? eating at secret recipe.
4.5 hours ago : watching Ocean's Thirteen with Kaze and hanging out with the fella.
1 month ago : Talking to ThePrecious, watching something on Youtube.
1 year ago : Enjoying life to the max, going through totally amazing moments(and some not-so-amazing) and meeting new people.


Layer Eleven : Finish the Sentence
I love : playing in the rain & laughing my head off with PrincessLSM

I feel : Joyful,hurt, irritated, couldn't care less, worried, pained, numb, quite, loud.
I hate : I absolutely loathe when someone apologises without knowing what their apologising for. apologising for the sake of apologising.
I hide : My troubles, my fears, my doubts(and some truth about myself) behind a thick front of smiles, laughs and ku-kuness.
I miss : Ikki-san,Aunty Molly, Mummy, My most prized possessions and Patches.
I need : A darn tissue, H2O, a book and a new mp3 and a cam(I don't NEED a boyfriend, but of course 1 wouldn't hurt*cheeky grin*)


Layer Twelve : Tag Five Ppl
Well, I can't very well re-tag Kish now can I? so my five victims are...

1) K.C
2) HisHighness Tan Kai Tzin.
3) Michelle Cheong a.k.a MaestroStrawberry.
4) Barry(who will be malas-ing to do it)
5) Nicky-boy.

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

Daydreaming Believer.

Buon giorno everyone!(that's hello in Italian, not a typo) So yes, finally feel ok enough to blog about the Cameron's trip.


Day 1: JacqTheCherry(what a mouth full!) and YoursTruly was dropped off by the parents at church. YoursTruly spent almost the whole trip up either staring out the window or sleeping. Arrived there and reception tells us that they may not be any water. So we went downhill to the town to get water and eat at the famous 'T' Cafe. It just wasn't all it was cracked up to be. Then the 3 female Stooges played the 'let's splash R.O water and laugh our heads off' game. Then just lazed around the whole day. We were the pioneers of climbing over the balcony and the small one's looked at us in awe.. others soon followed suit. And since our other roomies were only coming the next day, we had the whole room to ourselves! It was fun, we were the 1st to wish MaestroStrawberry over cups of hot chocolate and had a very 'BERTANDUK' discussion...

Day 2: MaestroStrawberry & I decided to let JacqTheCherry rest in for a bit while we climbed the balcony to scavenge for some food. We probably scared the wits out of this girl Sarah. 2 girls tiba-tiba climb in though the balcony and started opening pots and pans! But we made ourselves sandwiches and brought them back to our place. MaestroStrawberry's daddy treated us all to strawberry ice-cream from Raju's Strawberry farm then we went back and played hookie from the session.(Wasn't our fault! Raining..takde umbrella la..) so then got steamboat and that's when the Grand Theft Of The Mangkok happened. We saw it with our own eyes..skillfully done I say. In one fast swoop, it was gone! Then later we had to solve a brain teaser thingy and I was a bloody useless bum at that. And after that the whole apartment got started getting full..My brain kicked in and i figured out what was going on. So did Jacq. It took MaestroStrawberry a while to realise that everyone came to celebrate her Birthday! They got her a Secret Recipe cake(did u guys know the owner of secret recipe's wife own modern mom?) later, we swiped the candles from that cake and recycled them for a celebration of our own. Oh, and our roomies came. While they 'trained' for the taboo match being held the next morning, MaestroStrawberry & YoursTruly got high on sugar..What went on inside that remain between us *SHHHH!!!!*

Day 3: Had photography session and pastor gave the answers to the quiz..OUR TEAM WON!! We got 1st choice of light-up pens, umbrella's and notebooks(i never said the gifts were great..But they were good enough for us) Then we ate at Mary Brown which was highly over-rated.. Coleslaw was terrible. Lazed around the rest of the day, went for session and then went to night market where we bought all kinds of food and ate 'Ice Goreng' This lady puts some juice into a 'freezing pan' and starts frying it..so cool. Then I started feeling a little sick and knocked out for the night while the other 2 talk through the night. Oh right, the whole day we had no water and it was just nasty cause our toilet smelled horrible cause entah siapa ppl(from other apartments) peed in it and no water to flush. We ended up taking rain water to fill the tangki.

Day 4: woke up early, had a hearty breakfast and then went to morning market where YoursTruly bought a huge amount of roses. Slept most of the way down but the sudden urge to pee(badly) woke me up and i couldn't back to sleep. After a God-given stop I went to Jacq house. HippieAccountant picked YoursTruly up from there and sent me home where ThePrecious was ready too update me on current events.

There was this group of mat salleh's who we saw on our second day ad 1 mat salleh was teaching the other's how to eat steamboat. So kelakar i tell u! And as most of you know, YoursTruly is quite gifted when it comes to taking candid shots but my spidey senses failed me on this little adventure so enjoy sajalah gambar yang ada.




view from our apartment balcony.



Aunty Mae & Uncle Dan hard at work on the quiz..

Raju's Strawberry farm