In The Mind Of A Ku-Ku Case.: May 2007

Monday, May 21, 2007

Kids Of The Future

ok, so i only have like tiga puluh minit to write something in this blog of mine before my conscience starts screaming at me in a very G.I Joe manner

Conscience: Get your ass out of that chair little missy! Econs isn't gonna wait for you dammit!! NOW NOW NOW!!GO GO GO!!

HippieAccountant watching some nature show so i'm missing CSI:NY. boo hoo. Takpe takpe.. oh yea, he totally send my into a nervous breakdown last night, at the end of which all i wanted to do was throw something at him(of course i didn't la..sayang him too much) but this is the story. He told me in the morning that he was having a tummy ache. Then later when i was studying i realised that my darn calculator decided to mati on me so I figured it was about time i get a new 1. That way HippieAccountant can just put new batteries in this one and use it to the fullest. He leaves the house at 4 something saying he wants to go get my calculator and wash the car. fine. It was already 9 something and HippieAccountant still wasn't back yet. I kept thinking 'the car cant be that dirty..' so i call his hand phone and what-do-you-know it's engage. HippieAccountant's hp is never engage. Ok, starting to freak out.

'Woman, chilex la..knowing him he pegi mamak entah mana adi..'*this is my conscience talkin btw*
Your right..mamak..but but..mamak also where got so bloody long..?'
'hm... You got a point there.'
(so much for making me feel better. Useless conscience.)

So fine la, go shower. then like a dumb that i am, i start sobbing in worry in the darn shower..(malu sial!) Come out of the shower start calling him frantically..still engage. ARGH!! it's been hours! HippieAccountant pergi mana ni??!!! After a whole lot of freaking out i decide i should change(yes i was freaking out in my towel) then call someone. AuntyAnne maybe..Then i hear a miss call on my phone! Thank God! HippieAccountant! yes! i quickly called him back and start screaming in his ear. The best part is, HE sounds angry at ME.
YourTruly: WHERE ARE YOU?!
HippieAccountant: On the way back..
YoursTruly: WHY SO LONG? CAR DOESN'T TAKE THAT LONG TO WASH!
HippieAccountant: Went to see movie...
YourTruly: WHAT!!! YOU COULDN'T TELL ME 1ST! MAKE PPL WORRY!!

Went for movie..went for movie..Are you kidding me!! I'm sitting here like a dumb worrying for your life and your entertaining yourself with mindless violence/humour that threatens the minds of young people of today's world! After that call i cepat cepat message ThePrecious via msn and told him everything(still sobbing btw) he laughed and said 'funny dad you got there' Funny my arse. HippieAccountant came home, ate and tried pujuking YoursTruly. But YoursTruly wasn't gonna cave. I was so angry i cut my finger when i was cutting mangoes for him(see? I can still cut mangoes for him some more..wth.) Ganas siot..

Today was full of random blurness! I don't know what's up with Honey-Chan but a while back we were in school and our hungry stomachs wanted to be fed. When the bell rang she gets up, and packs her bag like how she usually does and i just watch her. But all of a sudden she puts her bag on her shoulders and starts heading out the door. I stare at her with total blurness for a few seconds and then i look and SookTeng and I just burst out laughing! OMG!!! It was so bloody funny! I call out to Honey-Chan..
YoursTruly:*Through a huge fit of laughter* BYE SHER-MAINE!!
Honey-Chan: Huh?*looks at her bag & us* OH PUCK! *runs back to put her bag down*
*YoursTruly & SookTeng laughing so bloody hard we were crying*

But she did it again once when i wasn't in school, so SookTeng savoured it. And just today we were suppose to collect our PMR slips from the pejabat. It was after recess and we went back to class to put our stuff away. Then before i get to leave she takes her bottle and heads out the door.
YoursTruly: LSM, you still hungry ah?
Honey-Chan: Huh? OH PUCK! *runs back to put her bottle back on the table*
Hyenna's ketawa pun tak boleh lawan kita la..

And for some weird reason, after school, just as UncleBus was coming, i started thinking of Honey-Chan, which in turn made me think of 1 of her comments that Zimz made about her photo's on friendster, which in turn made me start singing the theme song of Doraemon, which in turn made KittyKAT start singing too! so we were both singing Do-Ra-e-mon!(and all this in a span of 30 seconds i might add.)

Ok, I wanna watch how Tony's gonna make a total fool of himself this time before CommanderConscience starts screaming.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Under Re-Construction: My Heart.

My heart was whole. The most precious thing I could ever own. But extreamly fragile..So I've been told. I never truly understood how fragile, not until I gave it to someone else and saw it for myself.

'I just don't love you anymore. Please forgive me.'

With just 1 sentence, my heart began to shatter. Starting from the very top, like tiny pieces of shattered glass. Some pieces were so tiny that I couldn't see them, just like dust. I swear, some of them could fit through an eye of a needle. I sat staring at the pieces for what seemed like an eternity, tears in my eyes. Finally I decide that it was time. Time to re-build. It took awhile but I've finally collected all the pieces. Now here I am, ready to reconstruct this heart of mine. I don't care if people call me a fool. I don't care how long it takes. I'll bring it to it's former beauty once again. I'll mend it & build it anew. Stronger, better, and even more enchanting than before.

I don't blame you anymore for breaking it. I thank you for helping make it stronger.

slowly, surely..

The Masquerade.

I need freedom. I need it to stop. The stares, the accusations. Why am I being victimized for being who I truly am? For taking off that horrid mask you've made me wear for years & years. I never knew freedom came at such a price. I thought freedom was sweet.

I used to be one of them. Every night I would attend that masquerade ball, put on my mask. I mingled with the fakers, hypocrites, back-stabbers, accusers. I was one of them. I had become what society wanted me to be because I knew no one would accept me for who I am. Lies were in every word they spoke, a slim lining in their conversations. No one was your friend. I stood by those glass windows, looking out on the world I've never known. Would I fit in there? would they accept me? No. I was safe here in this masquerade of lies. But how I long to be free of this wretched mask. Suddenly looking out I saw him. His eyes shone like emeralds. He looked right through my mask. I knew it. He was looking at the real me. I knew it was time. Time to be free, time to leave this world of fakes and make believe.

I took off my mask ever so slowly. The air felt soft, gentle against my skin. I was free. But they started gathering around me. Glaring. They hated me because my face held all the emotions they were feeling. The emotions they were to fearful to show. They looked at me in disgust and loath because I was one of them no more. I was free and they hated me for it. They were closing in. They're going to tear me into pieces. NO! I need to get out! I need to be free! No one could hear my cries. Is this freedom?

Please go away..I curled myself into a ball. everything around me was turning. God, help me. I need to get away from this fakers now. All around me, cold. Empty. This is the end. My freedom was short lived. Suddenly I felt something warm enclose me. It pulled me up and kept me in it's warmth. It was him. The man at the window. He's arms held on to me, not letting go as those ugly monsters in their mask got closer. 'Get away from her! You are all cowards! You fear nothing but yourselves!' He shouted. He grabbed my hand and we ran. Oh how we ran. I could feel their hot breath against my skin but I did not care. I wasn't afraid anymore. They chased after us, but stopped short at the end of the hall. They were scared. He held on to me and turned to face them. 'What you don't realise is that your better off without that mask. That world out there loves your real nature. Not this. Don't you get it? It's your imperfections that make you perfect.'

*Dedicated to Kat. Let back-stabbers & hypocrites be who there are. You just keep being the gem you are.*

screaming on the inside. Wanting to be free.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Fake French

Aloha! 1st off, congratulations to MaestroStrawberry for passing her undang! Can just see her zipping around in the Kancil! My usual musing have to be put on hold. I don't know what's happening! I can think of some amazing stuff but when i put it down on paper in sound like utter crap and now everything is in bits and pieces. Oh well, went to Kasturi on Monday. Let's just say I didn't have a spring in my step or singing for joy due to that fact. Tuition on Monday's are unheard of! Unjustified! It should be out-lawed I say! All those who agree jom gabung forces! Went there looking like zombies but compared to Zimz we were as cheery as over-enthusiastic cheerleaders. Maths teacher was sick and talking in a Darth-Vader sort of way which just made us even more tired. But then he decides to snap our pictures!
Aadzim: Teacher wanna take pictures of your wife huh?
Mr. Jyoges: No..I'm taking pictures of my 'WIVES' plural. Cause there's two of them. Best friend mah. I choose one then the other 1 jealous leh'
YoursTruly: A little optimistic aren't we?
Mr.Jyoges: Well of course!
*He then hands back the darn phone to the owner saying 'Nah! got put this on friendster.'
What ku-ku...

*After maths class. Waiting for English class to start.*
Aadzim:....'I know la your English damn good..tak payah la nak kutuk..*cheeky grin*'
Mr. Jyoges hears this and thus..
Mr.Jyoges: 'Girl, Your good in English?'
YoursTruly: Yup yup.
Mr Jyoges: Then answer a question can?
YoursTruly: Alamak..ok..I'll try.
Mr Jyoges: Give the correct answer(response)... 'I Love You'
*Honey-Chan, Aadzim,YoursTruly and the abang kounter's burst out laughing*
YoursTruly: Oh. Thank You!
haha! according to him, that was the wrong answer!

Then came Teacher's Day. I just have to say, It's only RM2 for goodness sake!*wusa wusa* Anywho, I was trying to figure out our little jamuan and there was a bit of freaking out involved but everything worked out for the best! We manage to buy 2 domino's pizza which was what we planned originally and even got 1 large pizza for free! Thank you KakKerani and that God sent Gold card of yours! The overall performance's were great and Nas pulled through despite the rain. Knew you could boy. The best was the prefects sketch(and Nas's butt..*cheeky grin*) Peminat sure bertambah!

The jamuan later was good too. A small group of us just lepaking & enjoying. I managed to snap a picture of JeffreyTersayang just as he was looking up which gave him this weird expression on his face(jgn merajuk ya sayang) hehe.. AdzleyCute didn't show. Went back home tired but satisfied. Tomorrow must put on bitchy face and start collecting money from those yang tak bayar.*puts on best ah long mau duit face..Fail la.*

Tomorrow belongs to someone. Someone long forgotten.

Today I got to sit and watch the rain fall from my balcony. It was magically breathtaking.

Friday, May 11, 2007

Popcorn and caramel

Listening to: Gym Class Heroes-papercuts & Clothes Off.

Hey there dreamers! these past 3 weeks have been fun fun fun!(well, not always fun but you should get my drift by now) There was the Good Charlottle Autograph signing session, my school's IU Day, and a certain....'unmentionable' event. Aww shucks! But due to certain reasons I have choosen to withold that information(che wah!) But a big thank you to the besttest fag(self-proclaimed=_=) Tan Kai Tzin for being such a bad influence, a great senior and for the ice blended hazelnut coffee!But thanks for listening to my rants all week.(Your highness punya kepala can shrink now.)

1st off, there was Good Charlottle. There I was, enjoying brunch in my pj's when I get this call from Aljer...

Aljer:Get your ass here now!

YoursTruly: Huh what now?

Aljer: Faster la you blur case! Good Charlotte's here!

YourTruly: Must meh? lazy la...

Aljer: Do I sound like I care?! GET YOUR ASS HERE NOW!

YoursTruly: ah.

(FYI: I didnt even know where he was. Had to call him again for that. LOL.)

I got to hug Benji!(aiks! I sound like an OMG OMG OMG!! fan..) But yeah, it was pretty good. All the boys were really friendly and Paul was sooo funny!

Paul: ARGH! my hair's so mesy!

YoursTruly: haha! Don't worry, cause my hair is too so it's all good!

*Paul & YoursTruly start laughing at our weird little inside joke sorta thing*

Had fun afterwards at Secret Recipe with Jacq, Sam & Aljer! And thank you Aljer for getting my ass out of my jammies and into jeans to parade.

So then there was my school's IU Day. PrincessLSM & YoursTruly went to Midvalley a week before to look for a dress. FabKaze was suppose to join us but he was too busy lying on his stomach in his room, correct no? But I managed to find a dress, bought this gorgous necklace and matching earings, finally got that moisturiser I've always wanted, watched a fashion show, and went home smelling like Estee Lauder perfume...Luxury becomes me.

The entire event was actually pretty good! I got my hair curled(thanks babe!) which me thinks made me look like Little Bow Pip but I loved it. Our dates for that evening were Aadzim, Joshua Ling & Ron. We were slighty late due to Josh but cause of Malaysian timing the whole thing started half an hour late. Our DJ was a lousy DJ but a great MC. Weird no? Aadzim kept trying to kutuk Ron but tak jadi!

Aadzim: Ron likes this song wei. Lagu-lagu jiwang! He listens to lite&easy wei..

YoursTruly: So? I also what..

Aadzim: What? only the two of you then..takde gang..lame..

YoursTruly: Where got? there, she also what.*points and PrincessLSM smiling face*

Aazdim: I..You..*sighs*

*YoursTruly, PrincessLSM & Ron start laughing with personal victory!*

But the best part of the whole night was dinner at Shakey's afterwards! Kutuking Aadzim and his nasi goreng pataya! Wished we had taken more pictures but there just wasn't time. what with being hyper and all..

Oh! and respect shall be given to Josh for actually having the guts to go on stage and do a few steps(He's a b-boy)

And of course the unmentionable event.. I did have fun, FabKaze. thanks for taking us!(although it's gonna be a while until i do it again! AIks!! I must have looked like a sakai! NO!!!) Sorry for all that screaming in the car. lol!