My kinda guy!

Preferred name: Sebastian, Connor, Damien, Donovan.

Taller than me

Cute, bookish type

Wears glasses

HAS TO BE FUNNY

Romantic

Creative

Reads books

Loves music as much as I do

Protective

Trusting

Adores animals

Can carry a good conversation

Is his own person. Lives his life, not anyone else's

Cute habits are welcomed

Musician

Isn't afraid of showing how much he cares.

Family oriented.

don't... don't touch me. Just let go. Please.

I can't let you touch me cause if you do I'll start crying. everything will come back.

YOU left me. I don't blame you for it, you had a responsibility to those around you but you cant expect to just pick up where we left off. I can't fall in love with you again. I can't start thinking of all our moments. The way to touched my hair, my skin, your hands on my face. Those moments where we lost ourselves in a song. Just me and you in a cocoon that no one could see or ever understand. I just finished picking me back up again. See that box? my heart's in there. I spent a long time putting back my heart back the way it once was. I put the pieces in that box. Touching me now will only shatter it again. You broke me once. Please don't do it again. I beg of you. Please...Don't.

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Your the most horrible person in the world! you have no feeling! you have no conscience. Where the hell do YOU come off telling me that i did nothing? After everything we've been through. I lied for you, I sacrificed for you i spent time listening to you bitch and moan. All I asked for in return was respect! For you to show me the fraction of the love I gave you! I NEVER want to speak to you again! I hate you!

I feel like someone's just stabbed me. It's been awhile. I've forgiven you..

My heart's frozen and it just won't thaw... Hey you, I know what your thinking stranger. She looks like such a nice warm person. Let me in you in on the ugly truth. Come closer stranger. Come here and feel me. Feel my skin and you'll feel nothing resembling warmth. Go ahead, stab me. I won't feel anything cause you'll just hit ice. Nothing more. My heart is frozen and it just won't thaw. welcome to my lie.

SEX and LOVE and two different things buddy!

Mind Trick - Jamie Cullum(puts you in the mood)

Hello world!(or my world of friends la)

Ok, so a lot of my friends seem to have adopted a 'bah humbug attitude' towards the day we all know and love. That's right, Valentine's Day. But me being the hopeless romantic that I am,(I can just see Tom and Sherilee laughing right now..) I still believe in happy endings and the lovey dovey-ness that people expose themselves to on this sacred day(big words!)

BUT..(the infamous BUT)I think that the market and public in general are milking this whole 'sex sells' boohaha. I mean, come on! Not every guy is wired to think that just cause it's Valentine and they shelled out some cash that their going to get laid. I'm a firm believer that chivalry is NOT dead and that they are some guys who still believe in small gestures(They just seem to be lost somewhere in this colourful world) The reason for my sudden rambling is cause last Friday i went on a much needed sleep over(why call it a sleep over if you don't plan on sleeping?) at Michelle R's house. Thanks again for having me babe! Had fun! Anywho, Saturday morning Fallon and Michelle ambushed me with a trip to Midvalley. What ku-ku??!! I only brought rm20!( i thought we were gonna spend the day helping her mom to cook or whatever. So sue me) So anywho, went to memory lane to get something for her friends boyfriend and almost all the cards there had a dirty/horny joke in them. They was even a mug that had a statement about the side effects of too much sex. One of my friends said "Why don't they just rename it to Sex day or something?" I mean, of all places, Memory Lane! The 1 place you go to to get anything fuzzy and cute! Parents be warned. It's just plan crazy. Some of you,(mainly Brandon) have been asking me what's my idea of a perfect Valentine. I would have to say i would like the whole posh candlelight dinner, maybe some dancing, followed by a fun trip to the playground in your little black dress. Running around in the playground playing tag and maybe some ice cream afterwards sounds nice...But I'd also just love a quite night, just the two of us, enjoying a movie then getting something from him that might not necessarily be expensive, but proves that he's been paying attention to me and to detail. But either one, it all comes down to having fun, being spontaneous and just having loads to laugh about that night.

So that's about it. Also wanna ramble about Anna Nicole Smith but I'll leave that for tomorrow. Oh yea, before I forget..Happy Valentine's Day LSM, Aljer, Kish and especially Nicky Boy(miss you B.B)




Just for you-know-who...

These are the things I remember about them..

Sher-Maine's ku-kuness and ability to replay scenes..
Aljer's bluntness. Daring.
Grace's clumsiness and take charge attitude.
Man Dee's cheerfulness and depth.
Sook Teng's warmth. Making you feel like you belong.
Kat's ability to fit in in any crowd.
Fahmy's lame jokes.
Taufiq's golden retriever attitude(our can-do guy)
Adzley's contagious laugh.
Izati's daintiness.
Nadia's appearence.
Kok Mun's son and father story.
Wei Leong's innocence(or lack there of)
Kok Wooi's temper.
Max's enthusiasm.
Jeffery's devotion for Dorothy.
Dorothy's intellect.
Timothy's listening ear.
Adrian's loyalty to his unit(132 petaling)
Bernard's sensible nature amongst non-sensible people.
Eevon's glamorous persona.
Emily's timid voice.
Aadzim's way of irritating you without getting irritated.
Krishendren's drive to be the best runner he can be. And how he let's himself be bullied.
Hilmi's total change in attitude(he grew up) And love for spongebob.
Irene's smile.
Amer's gift of sleeping and eating.
Jason's cheeky jokes.
Joshua's 'Dei!'
LeAnne's attitude slowly pushing through. Showing it's lovely face.
Theresa's innocence.
K.C's camera permanently attached to his hands.
Jeremy's purring.
Christopher's loyalty.
Barry's voice.
Kai Tzin's boldness. And the unexpected big-brother attitude.
Atiqah's big sister attitude.
Andrew's role as Romeo in last years skit.
Kish's way of being deep 1 second and humorous the next. His inability to live without his cap.
Sherilee's knowledge which she shared with me. And her tough shell that life created.
William's funny comments when we buy ice cream from him.
Al-Asas' happy go lucky wave.
Ken Yee's height.
Subanya's determination.
Amie's manga drawings.
Lem's skinny-ness.
Josh's love for scooby-doo.
Piaree's welcoming nature.
Benny's humour(skimpy shorts!)
Syafie's love for Harry Potter.
Michelle Cheong's poems, beauty and elegance. Opening up to me, showing her trust in me.
Jacqueline's fashion sense and keeping you up until late hours talking.
Sasha's uniqueness and edginess. Her love for cats, teddy bears and being different.
Justin's admiration for John Mayor and his(Justin) goofy grin.
Darren's love for music, Thailand and the side of him that's not so easy to see.
Joni's spunk.
Jaclyn's honesty.
Lydia's happy everyday, cheerleader spunk.
Michelle Ooi's face and ability to be laud and proud for God.
Tammy's big eyes and innocence(don't grow up too fast. enjoy what you have now)
Joy's serenity.
Sook Chin's friendly attitude. The way her hair bounces when she jumps up and down.
Bernice's calm and motherly nature.
Eunice sense of style and that 1 late night conversation we had.
Gladys' friendliness.
Michelle R.'s ability to relate and showing me her hidden talent.
Judie's face...miss you babe.
Chris's face..miss you boy.
Thomas Chee's amazing moves on the dance floor.
Hosanna's talent.
Joelle's voice. And our old-time connection.
Mae Chin's skills on the basketball court.
Shulaksna's speed of speaking.
Wilson's commanding force.
Zoey's cuteness.
Ben's conversations.
Aiden's looks.
Anson's love for football.
Iqbal's love for basketball.
Brandon's love for hard metal rock bands.
Nick's love for me.
Crystal's ambition.

A Letter To My Heart.

I love you. I have to.

Your my closest friend. You know everything that runs deep within me.
My secrets, my lies, my hopes and fears.
You know what I yearn for, my ambition runs deep with desire.
You allow me to feel, without being confined(sometimes I wish you would)
How can something so small be so precious?
You know me better than I know myself(I wish you didn't)

But you are also my worst enemy.
Your words are sharp. Blunt
Laced with honesty, it courses through me, hurting me, killing me.
Why won't you just stop? Stop reminding of hurtful times,
Stop forcing me to remember the hurt everytime you ache...
Why can't you let me forget?!
Why make me feel worse about things gone wrong?!
Why do you want these thoughts to haunt me?! Again and again..
They run through me like a Ghostly Ballet..
I hate you. I detest you. I love you. My heart.


*I'm fine guys! Promise! Just felt a bit Emo(emotional hardcore) I'm still your one and only little miss ku-ku case! But thanks for the concern! *KISS*