Tiki Tiki.

There was joy, laughter, arguments, drama, scandals, pranks, deadlines, happy faces, not-so happy faces, and an all out rocking session. No, I'm not talking about a new reality tv show, I'm talking about Orientation Night for the June session 2009 hosted by the Rotaract Club. It's finally over and all of us can breathe a sigh of relief. Adrian and Adel did a fantastic job, kudos to them. I just hope I didn't disappoint Adrian as his second in command. I knew I could have definitely done better, and there are moments where I let my irritation for someone and stress of the whole situation get the better of me but hopefully I made up for it. All in all it was a good night, sponsors were happy and so were we. Reza Salleh and Black Light Banquet(Yes, I remember your bands name) were awesome possum of course we could have planned a more rocking event but I think all in all, with the time limit and challenges we had, I think we did ok. You could definitely see the amount of relief in everyone's faces once everything was done and you could feel it in the way all of us were letting loose and joking around during the after party. Haha, the after party was cool. Mindy is such an Indian and conspiracy was born at that table. To the entire committee, awesome job guys. Thank you so much for putting in your time, effort, blood and sweat. Now, the shaping of the new Rotaract.

Oh, last week a few of us had an impromptu old mates gathering with a few of my high school mates. It was nice, it was fun. I liked Adrian's tie. Ate at Ole' Ole' Bali and then minus a few of them, we had a mamak session in usj 1. Oh and I created a new trend. At a red traffic light, whip out you camera, roll down the window, and take picture of the other car of friends, subsequently blinding the rest of the road with you shocking flash. Yes, I'm a trend setter. Pictures pictures.

Omg I miss her so so so much.

With 2 awesome possum dudes.

While waiting for convoy car no. 3

Reunion.

Too Much, Too Soon, Too Fast.

It was a game. A simple game among those who knew each other for years, for a month, or didn't know each other at all. But that made the game more dangerous, more exciting. Secrets revealed, the answers to questions you may never find out otherwise. The game was simple enough. It was called S&P. One had to say a word and the next person had to say another word that related but no words that starts with the letter S or P. Penalty was to answer to a question. A truth.

They started the game. They were sitting beside each other. a girl and a boy. The girl, someone who was breathing. Breathing new air after ending a relationship with someone that was well, rather amazing. But alas, circumstances. She had put a lot of heart and even some soul into that relationship, learning to do the impossible for her.. Trusting without her guards up. But that trust was taken away from her and now here she was, putting on convincing fronts. Healing from the rage of losing it, and mourning the loss of him.

Then there was the boy. A boy who has had feelings for the girl for a long time. Feelings that at moments in time, were returned, albeit briefly. It had only been a week since the said break up, and it was rather bittersweet for him. Watching her cry and mourn, knowing how much she wanted to make that relationship with the other boy work made his heart hurt. He didn't like seeing her unhappy, and losing him was making her unhappy. But then again, he has said, confessed to her that he would wait, wait for this day to come so that he can finally make her his, and that day has finally come. She knew how he felt for her. She just needed to heal and he was already waiting, what was a little longer. And he knew how fragile she was. She's was close to being his and they would both be happy, he knew it. But for now, they were still friends. For now.

The boy got a penalty. Everyone was laughing, smiling eagerly as they thought of the perfect question to ask this boy they were meeting for the first time. Finally it came, from one of the girl's close friends. "How do you really feel about the girl?"

He answered "Honestly? Well, I'm not gonna lie, I'm madly in love with this girl. Have been for a long time. And I understand why whats-his-face would want to find a way to keep her, she's a gem, but I wouldn't lie to her for eight months to do it. I'd never lie to her."

Around her, her friends were going "aww!" and waxing poetic on how poetic it was. But not her. Her smile dropped, she became quiet. Later that night she shouted at her friend who asked that question, saying it was out of line for him to do so. He didn't see how she could be upset, that she should be happy. But she wasn't. She was freaked out. She felt like she was on a plank and her friends were pushing her closer and closer to the edge. This was getting out of hand. She knew the boy was a good guy, that she would be happy with him. But isn't it her choice who she dates? Is it wrong that she wants to enjoy her newly found freedom? She knew he was waiting and she felt bad for him, but she had told him time and time again not to. She didn't want him to. She wanted everything to stop. The waiting, the constant teasing from friends, how barely even a week into her breakup, there they are calling him her future boyfriend. Yes they were close, and yes they sometimes behaved as a couple would but she knew she had to give him commitment, that he deserves it but that was something she could not give him or anyone for awhile. It was all spinning around her. It was too fast too soon and she felt like she was being tossed into a whirlpool. She felt sorry for doing this to the boy, felt like crap for hurting him. But she had to get out. Too much, too fast, too soon.

The boy looked at his phone for the millionth time. No messages from the girl. It's been that way for about a week now. Since that night. He knew she was fragile and now he had scared her away. He forced too much on her, too fast, too soon. He felt like such an idiot, because after all those months of waiting, in one night, in one sentence, he got impatient and restless. And now he had lost her. The boy looked at his phone again knowing it was not going to ring.

Slow down. For both our sakes.

Who Knew Sin Tasted This Heavenly?

Quick update. HippieAccountant is officially more happening than YoursTruly is. He went to Vietnam leaving me to my own vices. Which means cooking up a storm, cleaning the place spotless(Aiyo why do I sound like such a housewife!) and perfecting my plans to take over the Hollywood movie industry.

On Saturday Bryan had his "Sinfully Delicious" themed house warming party. You know what that means? It means a WHOLE party FULL of goodies galore! We had bite sized portions of things like steak and Shepard's pie and stuff but the rest.. I've never seen so many chocolates, cakes, and all kinds of deserts in my life. PURE SIN. I loved the atmosphere of it all. The party was being held on the roof of his condo and I went earlier during the day to help him out with putting up the decorations and just running errands. Wine and deserts. Enough said. Company was cool too minus a few wet blankets(read:Andrew) Funny event of the night was that one of his friends(who was drunk mind you) tried to 'officialise' his bedroom. Bryan and I were bringing up more wine glasses when we heard noises haha. After the party was over and most of the guest except the close friends had left, we went down to his place and had a second round of drinking, talking and laughing till the cows came home. It was a joke of the night that everybody looked like they just had the orgasm of their lives and everybody kept moaning that people were going to start to think that we were having some sort of orgy going on. A whole night of deserts, wine and laughs.. mmm..

Pictures will be up soon. I didn't take any cause HippieAccountant took my baby to Vietnam but I'll get them from a friend of his who was snapping away the whole night. Toodles.

Forget.

Shake your head, move your feet, sway your hips, stomp your feet. Jump. Do not care ab0ut what's playing, the melody, fast or slow, just move. Let the beat vibrate your bones, seep into your skin, soak you in its sin. Let it take you high, let it become your high. Feel its roar in your ears, but its whisper in your thoughts. Forget those around you. Lose yourself in its touch. His not touching you, it is. Feel its breath down your neck, feel your flesh get warmer. Delight in the goosebumps it gives you. Feel its nail rake across your skin, tantalising. Let it give you the tingles you crave. For a night, no one knows. You are surrounded by bodies. Bodies who do not know you. Bodies who can't judge you. You are not you for a night. You can't cry anymore, can't scream any louder. So let it go this way. Let it take it away for you. Even for a moment. Forget. Lose yourself. Risk it. Numb yourself. Block it all out.



What is this? I have no clue either. It was in parchments in my head, I merely organised them. Make of it what you will.

These Days.

Yes, I truly am the most useless blogger ever. So here goes with the updates.

How was my holidays? Awesome possum! I started it off by going to Penang. Stayed 3 days, 2 nights. That's where I became fast friends with Navin a.k.a Bear in the Big Blue House. I've also been taking heavy dosages of clubbing(throughout the holidays, not in Penang) which is unlike me but hey, it's the holidays so whatever. Helo Bali may not be all that awesome club wise, but it does play awesome music. No drinking required to get your feet out on that dance floor. Then I attended the MMU Prom 09' at Sunway Resort. I was AbgBesar's date for the night. Although I looked like a lost little lamb who knew no one, but it was not bad, seriously. I just hope I wasn't a lousy date. But on the plus side, I got to see Honey-Chan again who I missed very the much.

This rock formation island thing which reminds us of those big monsters from Ultraman.

My date.

Besties Reunited.

After that I went to Sabah which was FANTASTIC. I went to Manukan island where the water was just amazingly crystal clear. We went snorkeling, didn't even realise we swam so far. And guess what? I freaking kissed a blowfish! It was SHOOOO cute!! We even got our hands on that gamat(sea cucumber) thing which was all slimy, poor Nicole had to hold on to it, and frankly it looks like a penis. And it was so geli to have the fishes all SWARMING around you when they sense the food. Delightful, but also somewhat geli. I literally FOUND NEMO! I also had the most awesome seafood dinner ever and I although my grandfather did try to hook me up with a distant cousin again, I managed to give him the slip. So yea, I ain't going to be marrying my cousin(distant or otherwise) anytime soon.





Almost a day after coming back, Melissa, Jilly, Navin and I travelled up to Genting(it being Mel's 1st time) and spent a day trying out the rides, getting soaking wet and freezing our tails off. Navin has found my most ticklish spot and plans to have fun torturing me.


Bear in the big blue hou..oops, I mean Bear in the Big Green Elephant!

Yumm.. My hair looks so good..



Yes, I show the fang!*cringes*

Dammit! Why can't my hair always look like this?!

I don't think I've rested all that much during this supposedly relaxing holiday but hey, I had fun. I did things I haven't done before and made quite a few friends along the way. Pretty awesome way to start the new semester don't you think?

The rest of the pictures can be found on Facebook here.

I can't wait for Senpai to come home! I would count the days, but I won't since he won't tell me when exactly his coming back grrr. I think the strain of not seeing him and just not being able to hold him for all this time is finally getting to me and as a result I'm becoming impatient for his return.

Maybe this semester I'll be more prepared for the storms to come, since I know their closing in. I handled the waves, bring on the storm. I know You will be there, waiting for me in the eye of the storm. You ARE the eye of the storm. That one place of comfort in the center of all the chaos. I thirst for You. I seek Your comfort. I know You're there waiting for me, and by my side in the meantime.