"why should we pay for music?" Incubus. The best freaking question ever asked in my opinion.

I've noticed something recently, and because of this observation I've come up with somewhat of a conclusion. I think straight couples need to learn a thing or two from gay couples.

Cause right, gay/lesbian couples have to go through A WHOLE load of shit. And yet, their still so lively, so cheerful, so thankful, so GRATEFUL. Which is more than I can say for straight couples. I mean, I know that even straight relationships have their problems. But gay couples have to through so much and yet they still have a smile on their faces. Straight couples on the other hand look like their carrying the freaking world on their shoulders. What gives?

Now, I'm not saying that ALL straight couples are like that. But most are. There are those who bitch and moan about his/her bf/gf coming late(pun 100% intended wtf lol) and then there are those who live in this bubble of happiness. Sad thing is that this bubble only covers them so everyone else doesn't read on their radar and their happiness doesn't get passed on to us common folk. Whatever happened to sharing is caring?

Homophobes or not, one thing you have to admire about gays/lesbians is their bravery. They risk EVERYTHING(as do some straight couples) and yet they do it. Because they want to be true to themselves and the others around them. Because they want to be with who they love. Even if it's someone of the same sex. They can't hold hands cause it's deemed 'perbuatan tidak senonoh.' But they work around this little glitch and are as happy as lovesick puppies. If the government said WE couldn't hold hand I'm sure there would be people going and having protest la, migrating la, slamming the government on blogs la... We don't work around it. Because according to us, it's our God given right. But correct me if I'm wrong but didn't God give this rights to HUMANS? So may I ask what are gays and lesbians? Sheep??

Even till now, lesbians, gays and trans are my favourite type of customers to layan cause apart from the few bad apples, most of them are just so gracious which is SO much more than I can say for some inconsiderate straight couples. Those homophobic fanatic Christian's really tick me off in this aspect because NO ONE should use the name of God to justify hurting, and condemning others. Just cause YOU don't agree with their way of life. You want to SAVE them konon.. Save them my perfectly pedicured foot lar. Answer me this, who's gonna save you then? If we want to be saved then we have to be ready for it. We have to open out hearts to it and to Him. No one should have to force you into it. That's not what Christianity is about. Guess some of you didn't get the memo.

I go with the "hate the sin not the sinner" policy and frankly I have no problem with those kinds of relationships because at the end of the day, it's their choice and only God can judge them. So why play God?

Realisation.

*48 more days till Honey-chan comes home.*

He sat there in the cafe, watching all his friends chat and laugh. He felt so detached. Like he was watching from somewhere else, through someone else's eyes. Not his own.

In that moment, he realised something he should have a long time ago. Just like how everyone is a liar, everyone is a hypocrite. Everyone. Though there was no escaping it was there? And even though he hated to admit is, he was one too. Here he was hating, judging, those who were hypocrites to others but he was worse. He was a hypocrite to himself. He was a faker. He was lying to himself, lying to those around him. He had molded himself and managed to become this awesome actor on this stage, that he not only fooled the people around him, but himself as well. How did that happen? When did this happen? He had become something he despised. Talk about cruel irony.

Stoning 101

Aloha. So..How did I do? Do you really wanna know? Do ya? You sure? For reals?? Well, because you asked SO nicely I'll just tell you shall I?

I GOT 3 FREAKING A'S!! YAHOO!!!

Damn gila babi hutan happy! Especially for my business! Didn't expect that at all! But yea, through out the entire week I was just so... spaced out about results. Everyone around me was panicking, some close to tears but I was just so numbed out. I mean, where were the usual butterflies? How dare they forsake me in my time of need?! The night before the results I tried calling on them. Thought to myself "what if I fail something? What if I get no A's? what if I only get 1 A?" But even after all that they STILL didn't come and I got tired waiting for them. The next day people were freaking and I was going "HEY! So long no see!" I guess I came to terms with the fact that no matter what, I did my best and there was no turning back but still.. I only started my long-overdue panicking when I actually had the slip in my hand. I didn't even look at it the 1st 3 minutes. Honey-chan saw it before me.

Thank you everyone who belanja-ed, celebrated, and wished me. I've been having sooo much fun. Bee(my boss at Tower) belanja-ed me chocolate(which is still in the drawer now that I think about it) and AbgBesar who bought me l'opera from Starbucks. And Fitz who took me out mamak-ing later that night. I'm officially jelak of chocolate cake or anything chocolate for that matter.

The sinful reason.

Today morning I followed Honey-chan to go pick up her testimonial and got to lepak for the last time before she goes off to NS. Babe, I'm soooo gonna miss you! But you'll be back in 2 and a half months and all your seventeen's(and me!) will be waiting for you! Ulu Semenyeh, here she comes! GAMBATEH HONEY-CHAN!! And in memory of her(cis..macam she meninggal dunia like that) every time I blog I'll post up how long more till she comes back.

I was at Tower yesterday, doing what I usually do and I decided to give the general public a viewing of the inner workings of Tower Records Sunway Pyramid. So here it is. Introducing...

Putra! Here he is opening a CD to listen to. We open like 50 million Cd's a day. I think we cater more to our own musical fetishes more than we do our customer's.

Practicing the sacred tradition of stoning.

Chai Lay and Kamal on the computers checking myspace, msn-ing, and sms-ing.

My bored/stoning*coughcoughcamwhoringcough* expression.

And now, may I present the many faces of BEE!

Bee busy working on 'work' that has nothing to do with work.lol.

OMFG! I so love this pic! See? Patience had its benefits. She's soooo gonna cincang me for this but its to hilarious not to put!!!

Bee with her 'secretary' face.

I have no idea what face.

Bee! You see?? I give you free publicity! Tak charge langsung! This woman's gonna become more famous than me..and its my blog pulak tu..=_=''

My Honey-chan and I. Notice how we're both wearing pink? I SWEAR we didn't plan it.

The Chocolate Cake Theory.Truly Sinful.

So, what sparked this whole theory started when one of my girlfriends asked me if I masturbated. When I said no she asked me how the heck I satisfied my 'sexual tension'. It didn't really help all that much when I said I didn't really have one.(not smart on my part I guess. She gasped in horror and looked like I just committed blasphemy) But then I had to rush out an explanation of some sort and this is what came out of it. The reason I'm actually BLOGGING about it is cause of what my friend(who shall remain nameless) said a few days ago..

Friend: YOUR A NUN!
YoursTruly: No I'm not.
Friend: Bloody hell yes you are! It seems NOTHING turns you on!
YourTruly: So not true. Plenty turns me on.
Friend: LIAR. Pauline The NUN!!!!
YoursTruly: Shaddap. =_=''

The Chocolate Cake Theory is this: Let's just say that you've never EVER tried chocolate cake before in your life. You've tasted every other cake there is..tiramisu, cheese, blueberry, stawberry, whatever berry known to man.. All except chocolate. You've seen it plenty of times but you've never actually tasted one so you have no desire to gorge yourself with it. Sure, every once in a while you get TEMPTED to but then you don't in the end and you don't get what the big hu-ha about chocolate cake is all about. But one fine day in the near(or distant, whichever suits your fancy) future, you actually decide and say "Hey what the hell I'm gonna try it" And when you do... You end up liking it soooo much that you keep wanting more. It becomes one of your favourites. See, when you DIDN'T know what chocolate cake tasted like, the urge to eat it wasn't as strong compared to when you HAVE tried it.

*To those who aren't quiet getting the gist of it, you have to think of chocolate cake as a metaphor for sex or anything along those lines.*

So basically I haven't tasted my chocolate cake yet. Of course I'm tempted to but who isn't? It doesn't JUST apply to sex. It applies to stuff like your first kiss, necking, making out..

I'm very proud of this theory cause I came up with it all by lonesome and within a span of 2 minutes no less.

*After I explain this theory to Fitz*
Fitz: Hmm... That actually makes sense.. You a bit the smart also huh?
YoursTruly: OI! What A BIT?? I ALOT the smart ok! *beams in bangga-ness*
Fitz: Aha. Okay.

YUM.

Saint Valentine. Know Him?

Okay, since everyone is posting Valentine's post I might as well right?(Actually my friend Sherilee who's overseas insisted. Why I can't just tell her over msn I don't know.)

Anywho, at midnight I called my wonderful, adorable Michelle R and messaged Mich C wishing them. Senpai was uber cute cause he had to keep track of the time the whole day so he could be the 1st one to wish me. When he does call, he's extra excited asking me if he's 1st. I told him he was fifth cause he was 20 minutes late. Then he merajuk.

Now, I was SUPPOSE to be off that day but they tukar my off day. But that wasn't going to ruin it for me. In the morning Honey-chan and I met up with Hilmi and Krishendren cause Hilmi wanted to treat me to a birthday/valentine's lunch. Had a ton of fun. Oh, and through out the day Senpai called me at random intervals to wish me so basicly he called almost every other hour. *blushes as the crowd goes awwww!* Then went to work. I was hyper, Ikhmal was emo-ing.

Then later that night, Hafiz picked me up as planned but didn't tell me where we were going. Said it was a surprise and I should just be good girl and quit fidgeting. So I did but as soon as we turned into that all too fimiliar road I knew where we were going. Aiden's mum's house a.k.a mummy. She planned an entire V day party for all of us! the whole garden was lit with only tealight candles that were everywhere and everything was either pink, red or white. And I finally got to wear my prom dress. She even made cupcakes which of course matched the colour scheme and she cooked EVERYTHING herself. The party was soooo much fun. And Senpai wasn't forgotten cause they took a HUGE piece of cardboard, wrote 'RYAN' on it, and placed it on the seat next to me. Everyone wrote messages and stuff on it and their going to send it to him. Then we played that game where you tie your hands behind your back and you and your partner have to eat an apple clean somehow? Yea well, Hafiz and I ended up champions after almost dropping the darn apple. And I bit Hafiz's lip in the process(Sorry tuanku!) but we still won! We both 2 jacoons doing some weird victory dance. You'd think by the look of it we just won the war... But the rest of the night was spent dancing, eating, chatting, dancing, playing pranks and eating some more. And there's a ton of pictures but I am WAY too lazy to post.

I loved my pressie sayang. Hope you like yours too.
To my 3 FAVOURITE F.I.L's(you know who you are) : Hope your day was just as fun fun fun!
Thank you Hafiz! Hope the boo-boo is feeling better.
Hilmi! Lunch was yummy!

Happy Valentine's All Of You!